…and eternally free

Just as my fate
is not my own
a leaf
in the autumn wind
drifts
  slowly
towards
  the
  ground
‘as I drift
  in
  the
oceanic
depths
of
sorrow’

together
we are forever
untethered
the dying leaf and I
at the mercy of the tides
wrapped in the embrace
of the night
‘no anchor
to keep me moored
no compass
to mark my way’
in this vast sea of despair
everything stays the same

aimlessly wandering
through endless starry nights
only my memories for company
my heart is heavy with loss
‘nothing to hold me here’
my tomorrows fade
into yesterdays
aimlessly drifting
nothing to see
nothing to do
just soft breezes
and endless waves of blue

‘no-one is waiting for me’
lost in my illusions
the day departs
the night swallows me whole
my mirror will not reflect
now even my own face
is just a distant memory
my dreams unspoken
can never be fulfilled
and I see them carried
upon the winds of change
and the sea whispers to me

‘find your own compass
follow your own light
and be forever lost
and eternally free’
© Ann Bagnall