…in our eyes

I see the emptiness in your eyes
like looking through a window to nowhere
the dark yawning abyss between us
grows wider and wider
in timeframes too minuscule to measure
I breathe in, I breathe out
and already you seem further away
intangible thoughts swirling in the empty space
the vacuum created in your place
your eyes once blue windows to your soul
where in their oceans I used to float
drifting in absolute peace
now just a memory
I am drowning in the darkness
of the storm clouds that now obscure the blue
the dark mirrors of your soul are reflected in your eyes
casting shadows, whispering secrets to the night
I feel the vibrations of truth in the marrow of my bones
and the weight of impending loss
renders me fragile, at risk of breaking apart
my feet still on the ground
like a condemned prisoner upon the gallows
I sense the gaping hole beneath
yet still I cannot comprehend
the reality of standing above this portal
that only I can open or close
the contemplation of letting go
of falling into the unknown
closing the hatch behind me
finding new views to fill my horizon
all of this overwhelms me
as I look back once more at the abyss
I ponder, that it takes two to navigate love
but only one to instigate loss
I am weary of waiting and wondering
and I am broken by the silence and lies
so I open my portal wide
and step out into the bluest of skies
closing it gently behind me
knowing that love never really dies
and it will always linger somewhere in our eyes
© Ann Bagnall